Food for thought today:
On the most fundamental level, you’re doing fine. You are fine. You are enough. You didn’t break your kid and you won’t. You can’t. On the surface, sure, some decisions may result in situations of contrast, and maybe you want to tweak some things you’re doing (and you always can, if you want to). AND — you can’t break them. You can’t break you.
You are not broken. You don’t need to be fixed. And neither do they.
If you want to do something: Love. Love yourself. Love them to the best of your ability. If you need a place to start, try listening to yourself and your kid. Listen to your/their words, the space around you/them, your/their body movements. Possibilities, growth, healing, hope — these are available in listening.